Words Of Healing

That night was a no different night, with me submerging my conscience in music and giving up for the day, putting my weary fake smile aside after a long and exhaustive day. I was tired of doing nothing all the day, even breathing was a laborious task for me to do. I logged in to my facebook account as I knew that sleep was miles away for an insomniac like me.

Scrolling up and down my news feed, I passed my time listening to music and yearning when I saw my stranger friend’s status that I vaguely remember now. All I remember now, he was mourning his friend’s death and tagged hiss mood as “depressed”. Suddenly, waves of compassion rose inside me hitting my conscience and I thought of pinging him.

“Hi!”

“Hi.”

“Hi…”

A few more ‘hi’s from the other end were left unopened and ignored by me. I wondered if he was going to seek vengeance on me by doing the same but this did not refrain me from pinging him.

“Hello, How Are You?” I left a message for him.

Within no time his messaged popped up on my screen, “Hi! I am not that good. What about you?”

I was pretty ashamed knowing that he reverted in the blink of an eye whereas I avoided him all these months.

So, I replied, “I am good. I am sorry that I could not revert back to your messages as I was in no mood to talk to anyone; I am going through a bad phase of life right now. Hope you will understand.”

He was pretty matured enough to understand my situation and our chats escalated. Once we got comfortable with each other, I asked about his friend.

“I had met him day before yesterday and we went for a ride together. I share a lot of memories with him as we belong to the same biking club. He passed away today in an accident. It could have been me today.”

I could sense the emotional upheaval going on inside him. He continued and I did not interrupt him.

“I am still in a shock that the friend whom I had met few hours back has left everyone forever creating a dark absence in our lives forever. I can never hug him again. He is gone forever leaving only memories behind. I can’t imagine the pain he has been through and I wonder if he is listening to me when I cry silently for him.”

I knew what it meant to lose a friend; though his pain was more intense than mine but I could, at least try to, empathize with him. I knew that no matter how many people join the crowd in our lives, they can’t fill the vacancies created by the ones who left. The voidness grows inside us and stretches to infinity. Death of loved ones is the worst one goes through in one’s entire life.

I also knew that sometimes words do the healing; if not healing, at least it works as anesthesia for some time. Knowing what it feels to cry myself to sleep, I wanted to help him tonight. I had no idea how I was going to do that, by being with that new and unknown friend or by my words of compassion; I just did not want him to feel the pain even though I barely knew him. I did that for I knew how painful pain can be.

“I believe that you did not lose him, you gained a guardian angel. You might miss his physical presence but, trust me, he will be with you forever as your angel, guiding and protecting you. He will watch you and so you need not cry and weaken him. Acknowledge his presence, it will make him happy, and don’t be sad. Life is cruel, I know, and we need to accept the change. I am here with you. You can speak to me; it will make you feel better. Actually, this is why I pinged you tonight; I saw your status update.” I tried to soothe his pain.

“You are such a nice girl. I owe you. I am actually feeling better, even smiling now. You have this power of healing. Thank you!” the tone of his message authenticated the fact that I could help him partly, if not fully.

As our chats escalated further and it was almost time for us to sleep as the birds had started chirping, I messaged, “As you said earlier that it could have been you instead of him today, I want you to know that you are important to your friends, including me; and very special to your mother. So, please be careful and take care of yourself. Do not ride too fast.” And I went on and on.

“For the first time in the last few months, I felt so good and special. Thanks again. Actually, like you, I too am going through a bad phase of life since months and these words were really important for me. I feel warm and strong after talking to you; I was going through identity crisis otherwise. After such a long time, I am going to sleep peacefully, like a baby, tonight; otherwise sleeping was just a part of daily routine. God bless you.”

We retired for the night but there started a new saga of friendship. Sometimes all we need is to make people feel special and important to make them believe that they can rise, like the phoenix, again. It was one such moment for him and I was blessed that I did it for him.

One of the secrets of life is that all that is really worth the doing is what we do for others.- Levi Strauss

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