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Slut In Your Eyes!

Don't talk to me about the stars
I'll tell you how real darkness is
I don't believe in your kind of love
I have traded my soul for peace
Spent nights in arms of my ephemerals
Woke up alone to sunrise
I opened myself up like a book
To be loved for a night.
I have been loved so wrong
In wanting to be loved right
Like a hotel for travellers on a lonely road
Nobody to stay here for a longer while
That's how I survive this life
Being a slut in your eyes.

More power to the all the sluts
Who are deeper than breasts and butts
You have been judged and tagged
And still live like you don't care
But, when night envelopes the sky
And you try try and try
You crawl for that love, for that guy
Who leaves you in the morning to just cry
Wearing a makeup to hide everything
And being mocked by filthy beings
Nights to days, days to nights
Hoping and believing guys' lies
But you, my slut, shouldn't be the one to cry
Paying a price, suffering and hurting to survive
More powe…
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Murdered My Soul

I don't fake a smile
I wash my face so that
Nobody reads my eyes!
If for one more time
I feel the need to die,
I will.
For, I'm done trying.
Why try to live,
When death is the ultimate peace?
With last ounce of hope
I rose again
To feel empty and lost
A rainbow without rain!
Everytime I try
I fail. A lil, I die.
When death is on me
I'll be alive and happy
They ask me to talk
But, never listened
Do you hear the ticking of clock?
Because, now it's the end of this game!

Demons, As They Rise Again!

Tonight I'm again sinking in myself,
Seeing my life turn to ashes.
My face wears a blanket of calmness,
And soul depreciating with turbulence.Tonight, again my mind is getting louder,
I feel like being ripped off my shelter.
I'll walk the alley that leads to the end,
Take a U-turn, before the final descent.Tonight again I'll cry till my tears are dry,
Like a lifeless heap of flesh n blood, I would lie.
The pain of living in every breath I inhale,
Giving up on life with every breath I exhale.Tonight I would again want to slit my vein,
Perhaps hang myself or jump to ease the pain.
I am letting the demons overpower me,
Too weak to fight, I am succumbing.Tonight it's going to be dark and obsequious,
But, I'll make it through, like I have been doing for years.
Although I feel I like I shouldn't try anymore,
Yet, I know that I am worth fighting for!Tonight again it's a battle in my head,
Either way I lose, part of me will be dead.
Not today, but, tomorrow It…

17 Missed Calls

"When you kissed me the last time and we, or at least I, didn't know that it was the last time, I didn't kiss you enough. I thought I had a lifetime to do so, I took you for granted. Then, I used to think that it was my faith in our love that makes me believe in our forever, but, we all knew about the inevitability of ephemerals. I wish I would have, everytime, kissed you like it was the last time. That way, may be, it would have had hurt less when you left, may be I would not have had regrets of not loving you enough. Now, that we look at each other and feel nothing, I yearn for the part of me you took away with you, and, left behind a bottomless abyss of emptiness. To say, I felt empty, curling under my blanket, pressing my palm against my face and wailing in agony to not let any part of my reality escape the little world I had created under my blanket, far away from the real world. The real world didn't please me anymore, for there was no you in it. But, this empti…

Annihilation

Pushed away, torn apart
Stamped and ripped in parts!
Shall I burn the hell?
Or get burnt?
Because it all hurts and
I don't want it to end.
Losing my mind and my soul
Wanting to walk away
But keeping close.
Is this how it was meant to be?
Turn the time and
I wouldn't start again
But now that it already has,
I can't walk away
I can't walk away.
When I asked you to come along
I didn't ask for annihilation
I didn't ask for annihilation
If this is love
Help me hate you
But now even if I try
I think I can't walk away
Holding, hurting, crying
Watching my heaven turn to hell
Wanting to burn the bridge
But all I keep doing is
Walk the bridge.
Burn it, break it, demolish it
I don't wanna go back
But I guess I'll build a new one
No matter how much it hurts
I think
I can't walk away.
No! Not anymore;
I'm stuck in annihilation and I guess
I'm loving the pain.
So, I can't walk away.

Even If

Even if I stand here still
At this very moment of time,
I move.
I move with you.
A moment ahead in time.Even if I hold still
And bring no change at all.
I'll change.
Change with you.
When I look back in lifeEven if I fail
But cease to give up
I'll grow.
Grow everyday with you.
Someday, will taste success too!Even if I say
I hate everything and everyone
I'll love.
Love with you
As we all have little love within us.Even if days get harder
And nights never seem to end
I'll hope.
Hope with you.
For, there's light at the end of tunnel Even if you leave
As people come, people go
I'll live
Live for myself
That's why I was born, that's how I'll go

I Lied When I Said She Will Be Fine

"Ssh! You'll be fine." I wrapped her in my arms trying to comfort her from something I could never understand. When I had set out on a path of conquest of life, I bumped into her and since that day I have known that she is like a quenching of my thirst of life. But life never comes easy. Behind her beautiful innocent appearance lies her demons. I tell her everyday that she will be fine; but, will she?Not a single person can look into her eyes and make out that there lies a galaxy of darkness inside her, thriving every night and embracing her. I see my girl standing on the edge of life and death, everyday. Every night. She has got the most beautiful and compassionate heart; she has also got cruelty and brutality, but for herself. The girl I love the most can't love me back with the same vigour and she's unaware of it. She thinks she loves me and even I had that notion but when I started knowing her, I knew she was able to love more but she just couldn't get ri…

Broken

The kind of broken where there's
No beginning
Time is a battle and
Defeat destiny!Swimming across an ocean
So deep
One more moment, I tell myself
But no end to reach.Running away from people but
Looking back too
To find myself alone but
Hoping not to.Scared and afraid of what lies
In my head
Illusionary demons thrive in mind and
Paralyze my senses.Callous or sensitive? Or ,
Nothing at all
Only tears can be trusted, smiles
So foul.No! I shouldn't be alone
With myself
Because solitude can destruct little
Peace that remains.I ain't fighting, and I am
No survivor.
Soon I will give up, but today
I'll put an effort.

आत्मसंघर्ष

आलस और थकान से भरी आँखें, अब ज़रा सोना चाहती हैं लक्ष्य को पल भर भूलके, समय के साये में खोना चाहती हैं दिल और दिमाग की इस लड़ाई में, दोनों को मैं समझाऊंगा रस्ता टूटा या मुश्किल तो क्या, मंज़िल तो हर हाल में पाउँगा।

जो अपने थे वो पराये हुए, पराये तो खैर पास  आते कब थे लक्ष्य जिन्होंने यहाँ पाया है, वो लघु मार्ग पर जाते कब थे घर छूटा, घर वाले छूटे, मैं राही खुद अपनी राह  बनाऊंगा रस्ता टूटा या मुश्किल तो क्या, मंज़िल तो हर हाल में पाउँगा।

प्रतिदिन क्षितिज से ढलता सूरज, फिर अपनी  जगह पे आता है प्रकृति अविरल अपने कर्म करे, यहाँ मनुष्य ही रूक जाता है जब तक सांस रहेगी खुद में, अब मैं भी ज़िंदा  कहलाऊंगा रस्ता टूटा या मुश्किल तो क्या, मंज़िल तो हर हाल में पाउँगा।

कर्म ही किस्मत, कर्म ही ताक़त, कर्म ही अपना विधाता है वर्तमान में आगे चल हमराही, कल परसो भी आज ही आता है खाली हाथ भेजा था उसने यहाँ, मैं तो  मुठ्ठी भर के जाऊंगा
रस्ता टूटा या मुश्किल तो क्या, मंज़िल तो हर हाल में पाउँगा। ~Abhinaw Singh(Guest Post)

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Chaos

World that I, almost, own
Hanging on a thread of luck
Working hard, lazying off
Time goes by, I remain stuck.World where I am, almost, happy
Just after crossing last hurdle
I will win, only if last remains last
And, chronology doesn't reshuffle.World where I am, paradoxically, free
Make my own choices but
Bounded with choices imposed on me
And, life restricted in shell-nut.World where I take, so much, pride
In my existence, in my survival
No time to hum in solitude
Chaos has become my living.