Eloquent Feelings

Tonight I'm again sinking in myself, Seeing my life turn to ashes. My face wears a blanket of calmness, And soul depreciating with turbulence. Tonight, again my mind is getting louder, I feel like being ripped off my shelter. I'll walk the alley that leads to the end, Take a U-t urn, before the final descent. Tonight again I'll cry till my tears are dry, Like a lifeless heap of flesh n blood, I would lie. The pain of living in every breath I inhale, Giving up on life with every breath I exhale. Tonight I would again want to slit my vein, Perhaps hang myself or jump to ease the pain. I am letting the demons overpower me, Too weak to fight, I am succumbing. Tonight it's going to be dark and obsequious, But, I'll make it through, like I have been doing for years. Although I feel I like I shouldn't try anymore, Yet, I know that I am worth fighting for! Tonight again it's a battle in my head, Either way I lose, part of me will be dead. Not t...

Pushed away, torn apart Stamped and ripped in parts! Shall I burn the hell? Or get burnt? Because it all hurts and I don't want it to end. Losing my mind and my soul Wanting to walk away But keeping close. Is this how it was meant to be? Turn the time and I wouldn't start again But now that it already has, I can't walk away I can't walk away. When I asked you to come along I didn't ask for annihilation I didn't ask for annihilation If this is love Help me hate you But now even if I try I think I can't walk away Holding, hurting, crying Watching my heaven turn to hell Wanting to burn the bridge But all I keep doing is Walk the bridge. Burn it, break it, demolish it I don't wanna go back But I guess I'll build a new one No matter how much it hurts I think I can't walk away. No! Not anymore; I'm stuck in annihilation and I guess I'm loving the pain. So, I can't walk away.

Even if I stand here still At this very moment of time, I move. I move with you. A moment ahead in time. Even if I hold still And bring no change at all. I'll change. Change with you. When I look back in life Even if I fail But cease to give up I'll grow. Grow everyday with you. Someday, will taste success too! Even if I say I hate everything and everyone I'll love. Love with you As we all have little love within us. Even if days get harder And nights never seem to end I'll hope. Hope with you. For, there's light at the end of tunnel Even if you leave As people come, people go I'll live Live for myself That's why I was born, that's how I'll go

"Ssh! You'll be fine." I wrapped her in my arms trying to comfort her from something I could never understand. When I had set out on a path of conquest of life, I bumped into her and since that day I have known that she is like a quenching of my thirst of life. But life never comes easy. Behind her beautiful innocent appearance lies her demons. I tell her everyday that she will be fine; but, will she? Not a single person can look into her eyes and make out that there lies a galaxy of darkness inside her, thriving every night and embracing her. I see my girl standing on the edge of life and death, everyday. Every night. She has got the most beautiful and compassionate heart; she has also got cruelty and brutality, but for herself. The girl I love the most can't love me back with the same vigour and she's unaware of it. She thinks she loves me and even I had that notion but when I started knowing her, I knew she was able to love more but she just couldn't get r...

The kind of broken where there's No beginning Time is a battle and Defeat destiny! Swimming across an ocean So deep One more moment, I tell myself But no end to reach. Running away from people but Looking back too To find myself alone but Hoping not to. Scared and afraid of what lies In my head Illusionary demons thrive in mind and Paralyze my senses. Callous or sensitive? Or , Nothing at all Only tears can be trusted, smiles So foul . No! I shouldn't be alone With myself Because solitude can destruct little Peace that remains. I ain't fighting, and I am No survivor. Soon I will give up, but today I'll put an effort.

आलस और थकान से भरी आँखें, अब ज़रा सोना चाहती हैं लक्ष्य को पल भर भूलके, समय के साये में खोना चाहती हैं दिल और दिमाग की इस लड़ाई में, दोनों को मैं समझाऊंगा रस्ता टूटा या मुश्किल तो क्या, मंज़िल तो हर हाल में पाउँगा। जो अपने थे वो पराये हुए, पराये तो खैर पास  आते कब थे लक्ष्य जिन्होंने यहाँ पाया है, वो लघु मार्ग पर जाते कब थे घर छूटा, घर वाले छूटे, मैं राही खुद अपनी राह  बनाऊंगा रस्ता टूटा या मुश्किल तो क्या, मंज़िल तो हर हाल में पाउँगा। प्रतिदिन क्षितिज से ढलता सूरज, फिर अपनी  जगह पे आता है प्रकृति अविरल...

World that I, almost, own Hanging on a thread of luck Working hard, lazying off Time goes by, I remain stuck. World where I am, almost, happy Just after crossing last hurdle I will win, only if last remains last And, chronology doesn't reshuffle. World where I am, paradoxically, free Make my own choices but Bounded with choices imposed on me And, life restricted in shell-nut. World where I take, so much, pride In my existence, in my survival No time to hum in solitude Chaos has become my living.

Everything you have is not everything If you lie awake alone After the lights go off! Nothing can never be nothing If it so much matters After the lights go off! Somethings are not just somethings If it beats deep inside your heart After the lights go off Sometimes are more than sometimes If you relive them every time After the lights go off! All that matters, all that is true Are only those that keeps you awake After the lights go off!

Long back, I would have been gone, With no traces of me except in few hearts. Every bit of me mixed with dust and earth, Gone like the unseasonal rain; It was destined for me to be in heaven. A thread of love swirled around my heart Tied and captured, binding me here! I still wish to fly to nowhere but above sky, But the single strand of love Binds me to this worldly lies.

"I'm falling for you and I don't want to think straight. I have not been this happy since a long time. Let's not stop, because,I know that you *feel* the same." I urged him holding his hand on the extreme secluded corner of a small coffee house. The rain drops were gently touching the window pane beside, just as I wanted his fingers to touch my skin and run down my soul. He tried too hard to not to look at my eyes, but I was drowning into his eyes wanting to kiss his lips and to melt in his arms. I knew he was falling hard and I was not. I just loved the feeling of being loved and wanted it so badly. Just as the drought hit land requires rain, I needed love and I couldn't let him go. Finally, he made a move and tried to speak; but he was struck as he looked at me. It was nothing like the time had stopped or the world ceased to exist, like it happens in movies, the time was running as fast as our heartbeats then and all the people were there too but it didn...